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TO994M | day 29 | morning | text | filtered from DI481O

[What's up, good citizens; it's the injured lady who stole away from your base a few days ago, here to pass on some intel!]

Resets after dying are all screwy. Injuries can carry over. Objects may or may not disappear and may or may not reset to arrival condition. There's no pattern with any of it, as far as I can tell. Keep it in mind.

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I don't think enough ppl have died often enough for us to know if there's a pattern to any of it or not. HOPEFULLY it stays that way. P.S., ur a dumb cunt.

Edited 2023-10-05 20:34 (UTC)

Nice to meet you, too.

It's Maddy. I'm borrowing somebody's. Don't tell anybody bc he doesn't want his name public and ppl know I'm with him. What the fuck is WRONG with you? Why did you run off? You can barely fucking move! Why didn't you at least take somebody with u? Randvi can fight! I bet she would have gone! Ppl would have gone w u and helped u.

I had something I needed to take care of, and they all had other stuff they were working on. Nobody combat-ready was bumming around doing nothing. Besides, the airfield should be protected, remember? I take away Randvi, I take away a guard.

You went after the other cop guy.

[ It's not really a question. Fuck... is this her fault? She was telling Shaw about how he shouldn't be alone right now. But this... this isn't what she meant.

Guilt tugs at her. She can't just say that openly, though. Gross. ]

What if I left by myself because I had something to take care of? What would u say to me? huh???

He called me. He was injured and he needed help.

[See, Maddy? Not your fault!]

I'm not a 17-year-old civilian. This is literally my job.

u still should have taken somebody. ur in more danger than the airfield is. now hes in danger too bc he doesnt have somebody who isnt hurt to help him.

[ She's not sure she believes that. It not being her fault, anyway. It still feels like it. ]

ummm excuse u!!!! im 18. im legally an adult. if u get to say ur a special ops or w/e because its ur job back home, then i get to say im an adult because i am one back home.

Ok fine, you're a wildly inexperienced young adult who's still in high school. Happy?

I'm barely hurt anymore. Three days in bed helped.

no. [ At least she's honest...??? ]

"three days in bed helped" do u even read what u type before u send it?

It's still healing well, too.

[She's been downgraded to a "moderate injury" and everything!]

i'm like, super happy for u and everything.

[ So has Maddy's! What a coincidence. But at least Maddy isn't wandering around alone, looking for another person who might also be lost or injured.

A horrible thought occurs to her. ]

is the other cop guy, ur friend, is he ok? do u know about this bc something happened to him? :(

He didn't die, he just got hurt. Movement's a problem, though.

r u guys together at least?

Not yet. I'm hoping I can get to him today.

kk. do me a favor? can u pls at least text me and let me know when you find him so i know u guys are together?

Sure, whatever. I'm going to tell you what I told BT6, though. Worry less.

im not worried. i just think it makes sense to have somebody u can check in with.

You are so obviously worried, and I'm the wrong person to worry about.

[ Maddy could continue denying it, but why bother? She's a lot more transparent than she realized, apparently. ]

u said u didn't think emotional needs are for losers. right? then prove it. maybe checking in with me is something u do for me and not for u. also bitch do i need to remind u that u left by urself without telling anybody after u couldn't even fucking move for 3 whole days. i'd worry about ANYBODY who did that. u aren't fucking special so calm the fuck down.

Edited 2023-10-05 22:35 (UTC)

Good.

[Genuinely, unequivocally good. She is, she knows, a black hole for other people's emotions, never able to give back what people put into her, and she knows that most people who try to care about her will end up hurt by that eventually. No kid like Maddy needs to deal with that. No kid like Steph does, either, even if Steph reads as so much older and more experienced.

And yet. Maybe checking in with me is something you do for me and not for you.

She isn't capable of much, but she knows she's at least capable of that.]

I'll tell you when I find him.

[ Maddy feels a woosh of relief. It's not much, but realistically, it's all she can really do or ask for right now. She's not going anywhere near the cabin if she can help it, and anyway, she needs to focus on learning to scout right now. She has her own shit to worry about.

Maybe if Shaw had told someone where she was going, somebody could have gone with her or gone to get the detective instead of her, but it's too late for any of that now. That Shaw doesn't feel the same types of emotions she does isn't a concern; everyone is different, where that's concerned, and most people don't feel as deeply as Maddy does. Trying to force her to feel things she doesn't feel seems pointless and kind of mean.

Trying to get her to just not be stupid in her actions* is something else entirely. ]

thanks. <3 that's all im asking. take care, ok? talk later.

*This public service announcement brought to you by someone who almost died the night before doing something extremely stupid for no reason. She owes you, Randvi.

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TO994M | day 29 | morning | text | filtered from DI481O

text | callsign: AK324N

changing her answer slightly bc she hasn't talked to this cs yet and just assumes it's them, lmao

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